airports
so, as predicted, my life is changing. i guess life always changes, but i felt this one coming. it’s not changing in the way i planned, hoped for, or even expected, but it is changing and there is nothing i can do.
it’s really scary not knowing where i am headed. in the past it was scary, but always okay, because i had time to figure it out. now i feel i am out of time and still haven’t got a clue as to what is supposed to happen next. i just have to have faith that this is the way things are meant to be, and eventually it will all make sense.
japan was amazing. completely different than i expected, but quite amazing. it was hard to comprehend that i was on the opposite side of the world. i just couldn’t get my brain around it.
i was suprised at how many people didn’t speak english. i have only ever been to europe, where if i didn’t speak the language, the person i was trying to communicate with would say, “that’s okay! i need to practice my english!” in japan, if i couldn’t communicate, the person on the opposite end looked just as confused as i was.
strangly enough, i found this inability to communicate kind of refreshing. it was exciting. it was an adventure to see if i could order dinner, or take the subway, or do anything really.
tokyo was fantastic. we spent the majority of our time there, but there is still so much we could have done. i also stayed in a really amazing hostel that felt like a home. i definitely felt a bit sad leaving.
coming back, i felt some sort of disconnect with everything. i hadn’t been gone long enough for things to change, but maybe because things were exactly the same, i felt weird. i guess i always get in a post-trip funk once i get back home, especially if it was a great trip.
being away from home and experiencing new things really makes me want to get rid of all my belongings and just go. experience new places and new things and meet new people. while i know that isn’t quite realistic for me, i’m definitely going to have to incorporate more of the new into my life. new people, new places, new things to do…i want to live a little more than i have been.
